All the power in the universe can't change destiny.

2009-05-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

It's been so long since I've last been here. NS life is coming to and end... finally. So much had happened... yet even at this point I am still feeling empty. It's like everything around me is one big bored feast. Maybe it's fatigue, the reluctance to go to that boring place... then again who knows. Can't be bothered with a lot of things now. I just want this shit to end.

2008-09-21T10:18:00.002+08:00

Each and everyone of us is like Miller, The man who never stop walking. We are all living being bestowed with the gift of desire. Of wanting to become someone. But when the harsh reality come, it will separate us into 2 group of people.

The first is the group who will be climbing the mountain of dreams. They will not give it up, for they feel their dream is what define them. The second group, is exactly like Miller. You reach the point where you have to choose whether you will continue or back out and join the social rat race. You end up becoming a nobody. Whatever success you have achieve you will never be satisfied. Because truth to be told, you never wanted whatever it is you have gotten through the deviation. You thought you can go back and make change but when that happens you realize that all of this is too late. There is no turning back. Instead you give an excuse by saying "That's life". This is the point where you truly have become Miller in the story. From the moment you took up this excuse, you have not realize that you are a lie. Just like Miller who have proclaim his life as a conveniently constructed lie. You will say I'll just move on, shit happens. But what you don't realize is that when you say that and move on you are just like Miller too. By living this false life of yours you are actually walking... endlessly down a never ending road.

Life is full of choices, when you have your dreams, you have a purpose. By having purpose you have more choices. You are free to choose. Hence you are in a journey full of crossroads, never a same path. But when you choose the wrong choice, you have walked the path of condemnation. This is a path where you have no choice. You just live as a prisoner of fate. Your road never ends until the day you die. Just lie Miller. Those who live their lives after the wrong turning point are actually punishing themselves. Never free. because you know one day, you will turn back and you will begin to regret on the choices you have made.

and that is the moral for the story of the man who never stop walking.

2008-09-21T00:12:00.002+08:00

Continue:

So he walked... he kept walking. He traveled the world and walk to every corner of the earth. He crossed the causeway and headed north. Armed with only his clothes, his credit card and his newly made passport. He went on a soul searching journey.

As he walked, he had a cold stare. Thinking in his mind, how am I going to resolve this? Maybe death is a way out of this... But he can't. He was too afraid to. And he kept walking. Once he got to middle east. In a tired war zone. Walking, never a stop unless he is really tired and found a pit stop for himself. At present he could never feel any form of tiredness. Everything about him is numbed. Except his brain, constantly actively working about the problem that is his life. Then, he got caught by a group of local activist. They were believers, and declared him an infidel polluting their land. They brought him to their hideout, wanting to film his execution. When they asked

"What is your last words?" He simply replied "None, for I have wasted this whole life on things I have never asked for. I have wasted this life pleasing others. No, not that. But if you're going to kill me... make it quick for I am a coward who fears pain. If you would be kind, lift me from this tainted flesh immediately. Swift and painless."

" Then you shall go to God."

" I never have one. And I shall not expect one to come..."

Just when they were about to behead him, the local US Marines came.The breached the house and kill every one except him.

"So your God rather trade you off than a sinner like me...."

Back at their base, the commander ask him if he wants to go home. And he said no. He shall keep walking, for this is his sin. His punishment. And so they let him go. And he continued travelling.

Years have passed. And it was time he realized it was his son's time to make his life decision. So he went back. To a place he once call home. A stop. He saw his son for the first time in so many years. There he asked

"Son... Have you got any plans."

"I want to fulfill your dream in your stead dad. So that you will come back... to us..."

He paused. And finally responded to the silence " Is this your decision for happiness or is this your decision to make other people happy? Is it worth it? Your life... on this."

The boy never reply. He took out his check book and wrote a sum of one million dollars and gave it to him...

"This should see you through you life's journey... Go. Pursue you dreams. Don't think about me. I am a forsaken soul. I have sinned. Sin not because I committed a religious violation. I have no faith. Rather I have sin because I have wasted the most beautiful and important thing nature have endowed within us... Life, consciousness and the time we're given to write our story. This is my punishment.The only way to repent... To waste what I have left. For that is what I am, a wasted soul."

Then he walked out... And he never stop walking ever again... Until he sees it off to the end.

2008-09-20T23:51:00.004+08:00

OK guys here is something I have reflected upon when a fucked up truth hit me. Yeah its about my education. Money may destroy my dream. Here is a short rough sketch of the idea that have inspired a part of my life. I will probably try to write this "book" who knows, maybe I simply won't bother but here is a bit of what I've thought and I title it : "The man who just kept walking"

Pardon me for the bad grammar and stuff... For now I just can't be bothered.

There was a man, whom I have got no idea what his name will be... maybe I'll call him Miller. So Miller have this dream, that one day he will become a game developer. He studied hard, get to know the ins and outs. Nice guy, shy unless approached. So he finally finish his general educations and have took the first step in his tertiary education and manage to finish it after all with passable grades. He wonder about his next step, and he decided that he wants to go to Digipen to further his endeavors. But there was a big problem. Money.

The course fee for the 4 years RTIS course is close to 71 grand. The local educational scheme only allowed up to 20 grand. The rest he needs to borrow from the bank. His family wasn't in a strong financial position to apply for a loan of the remainder 51 grand. So they dissuade him to change his focus. He, of course, was reluctant. Then he looked at the society he is in... he have made a choice. I'll go into the financial world, earn enough, suck the money out of every little single soul. As revenge. A cause motivated by pure vengeance. He wants to buy everything he could and ruin everyone in his path. Only that will satisfy him.

Finally, he did it. Top his class, got a great job. later further his studies, got a MBA. Start a firm and became a very successful man. Well know to the whole damn world. One day, he was interviewed by Times magazine. The interviewed when well until one question that stumble upon him.

"Mr. Miller, are you happy with all this?"
"I'm sorry, what did you say?"
"Is this your dream, like you know, your true calling... Are you happy?"

He was stunned. He couldn't answer. his mind went into a blank, even though this question was email beforehand. He sat there. And a long silence followed. Inside his mind he was reminded about the passion he had for games. About wanting to be a Developer for the best games in his dreams. When the interviewed finally ended... he never answer that question.

He ponder on his life. Got himself drank every other day. He look at his surroundings and reflect upon his life and said:

"This is all a lie. I've never want any of this"

So he went home. He looked at his house, stared at his beautiful wife and think:

"She don't deserve me. She doesn't deserve this lie that I am"

He wanted a solution to all his questions but he can't think of one... Maybe I can go and do game development studies, he thought. But it was all too late. He Don't have the drive anymore. So he told his wife,

"Let's divorce"

And he left the house. Alone. He gave her everything he have left, and took only a portion of his wealth. And he started walking...

2008-09-08T22:54:00.003+08:00

Why does everything have to be so fucking complicated?

What the fuck is wrong with this world, hell what the fuck is wrong with me? What the fuck is wrong with the ladies, why can't they just be a bit more predictable. What the fuck is so hard about writing a fucking engine? Why can't I fucking do it? Damn it !!! I'm sick of all this mediocre, all these half fucks. Why, while I'm trying so hard, do I always end up in a state of failure. Damn. is it so fucking hard to write a fucking good textbook that teaches the reader with a practical approach? Fuck you !

And to you!!! You, the overhyped one. I fucking hate you now. You who live in your fallacious lie. You who create all these fallacious hype. You who are a product of corporate greed. I will bring you down. I swear it upon my name, my honor, my dignity and my integrity. That I will bring down this fallacious empire of yours down to pieces ! I will tear your palace brick by brick. I will not let you beat me. Not without a fight. You just got lucky I'm stuck here. When the time comes I'll take you down. Like the phony giant you are. Down to the depths of the earth where I will bury you alive. I'll end that overhyped career of yours.

And lastly to the overtly emotional prick. I hate your type down straight to your guts. Damn you all.

2008-07-16T09:03:00.001+08:00

The Console War has changed. It's no longer about quality of games, innovation of hardware, or backward compatibility.

It's an endless series of proxy battles fought by third party developers and advertising corporations.

The Console War - and its consumption of money - has become a well-oiled machine.

The Console War has changed. ID-tagged consoles carry ID-tagged Games, use ID-tagged DLC.

DRM inside their software enhance and regulate their anti-piracy.

Generic control. Information control. Emotion control. Enjoyment control. Everything is monitored and kept under control.

The Console War has changed. The age of innovation and big dreams has become the age of motion control and casual gaming. All in the name of averting bankruptcy from risky software creation.

And he who controls the casuals. Controls the industry. The Console War has changed. When the casuals are under total control.

Casual becomes routine.

2008-06-24T23:06:00.001+08:00

2008-06-09T10:31:00.000+08:00

Absolutely the bet ending in a game ever

2008-05-28T11:47:00.002+08:00

Keiki Kobayashi's Ace Combat 6 works. I love all his work so far. Definitely modern masterpieces.

2008-05-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

2008-05-24T21:41:00.003+08:00

Sigh missing my MTG friends.... ever since I quit haven't touch on it one bit. Saturdays are so draggy. Slow, routine and boring. Hit town? Don't really feel like spending money.

Quite a lot of shit are going on through my mind now. There are times where things get complicated and quite frankly... forget it. I start to see the human selfishness. Its inherent in everyone... just how serious is it. There are a few in my life I can truly trust... quite a few of them are not by my side. I don't know things are just complicated...

Anyway lest than 20 days to Metal Gear Solid 4. Yes MGS4, I could have used that but I felt a need to spell out fully lol. Having a MGS marathon now, and boy did it brought back a lot of memories. The emotions in it... I can sort of understand why Kojima-san that fans like me will feel this journey, the MGS4 journey, being an emotional one. Another trait I think I can take note of... to be use in my career lol :P

A lot of things on my mind, there are a lot of people whom I miss.... guess that's life.

2008-05-14T11:44:00.001+08:00

http://www.sakakibara-kikai.co.jp/products/other/LW.htm

2008-05-14T10:07:00.001+08:00

LOL Satanic shit

Been around for quite a wile. Stumble on it again

2008-05-13T10:41:00.001+08:00

Cool stuff

http://www.littledevils.dk/cqb/cqb_tac.htm

http://www.practicalairsoft.co.uk/tactical-movement-in-the-field.asp

http://www.cqb-team.com/tactical.html

2008-05-04T23:06:00.001+08:00

Has he lost his mind?
Can he see or is he blind?
Can he walk at all,
Or if he moves will he fall?
Is he alive or dead?
Has he thoughts within his head?
Well just pass him there
Why should we even care?

He was turned to steel
In the great magnetic field
Where he traveled time
For the future of mankind

Nobody wants him
He just stares at the world
Planning his vengeance
That he will soon unfold

Now the time is here
For iron man to spread fear
Vengeance from the grave
Kills the people he once saved

Nobody wants him
They just turn their heads
Nobody helps him
Now he has his revenge

Heavy boots of lead
Fills his victims full of dread
Running as fast as they can
Iron man lives again!

2008-05-02T10:20:00.002+08:00

OK, may be I can let you guys in to some small bite of my life now...

I am currently the PA for someone. Don't think its wise to say who... Gt a job that has to deal with people. A lot of people. And if you guys know me well, I hate dealing with people. It's just so sickening... And to make matter worst. This is SAF, where etiquettes matters. I am so sick of it, why can't we just write and email/letter in a straight and direct manner that is clear, concise and easy digestible? To hell with all that chains of command crap. And my job scope includes liaising with people for visits and meeting. No shit I hate it. Sure the people on the opposite of the lines are nice, they hardly give me any problem but still this who phone shit make me feel uncomfortable. And to make matter worst, I'm hardly sociable, talking to stranger is a pain in the ass for me. Why? I don't know... maybe this shit is just psychological. I fucking hate stranger to approach me. And now I have to approach strangers. Great, fucking facts of life... it sucks. Every bit of it. I hate my NS life. Can't wait to finish my time and go study...

2008-04-25T10:28:00.000+08:00

2008-04-23T08:58:00.002+08:00

Life is full of shit. It's like a box of chocolate; You'll never know you're gonna get. And they all look like shit... if you're lucky you may get a fondue, which look like diarrhea.

2008-04-13T23:53:00.002+08:00

FUCK MAN FUCK MAN FUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!

God dammit. It sucks to be a gamer in Singapore. Fuck ! The US MGS4 LE version is exclusive to Gamestop.. dammit. Sonovabitch... first we buy games at over priced rate. Then we get it late. Now I can't even pay extra for what I want? Fuck the Asian version man. FUCK IT ! Asian version sucks, their packaging is always half fuck, it doesn't make you feel the exclusiveness... FUCK YOU DAMN IT... GAHHHHHHHHHH FUCK !!!!!!!!!! THIS !!!!!!!! SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS THE LAST IN THE SERIES CAN'T ANYONE FUCKING GRANT ME THE HONOR TO COMPLETE THE COLLECTION IN ONE SOLID UNITY? DAMMIT !!!! FUCK....

Guess I have to settle with the US regular version along with a Japanese Special Edition.... THIS SUCKS....

2008-04-11T10:27:00.003+08:00

Woo hoo I am now unofficially accepted into Digipen Singapore's Bachelor of Science in Real Time Interactive Simulation. ROCK ON BABY.

*I said unofficial because I have yet to receive the official letter of acceptance. I'll get it in like a month time. Got this info through my email*

2008-04-02T13:22:00.000+08:00

2008-03-28T11:23:00.000+08:00

2008-02-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

Wow cool just went through a Digipen talk. Now that I found out so much about them, I am absolutely of my goals and visions. Now I need to be enroll in, get MDA's scholarship and most importantly... that Testimonial from Cedric.

I have a business plan too but that will have to wait and I will have a proposal soon, need to work things out properly.

2008-02-26T15:03:00.003+08:00

There are 2 things in life a guy will always hope for failure :

His girlfriend's pregnancy test.... the other...

HIS FFI !!!!!!!!!

Quote me on this one lol

2008-02-19T08:29:00.001+08:00

Powerful words written in the Declaration of Independence:

" We hold these truths to be sacred & undeniable; that all men are created equal & independant, that from that equal creation they derive rights inherent & inalienable, among which are the preservation of life, & liberty, & the pursuit of happiness; that to secure these ends, governments are instituted among men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed; that whenever any form of government shall become destructive of these ends, it is the right of the people to alter or to abolish it, & to institute new government, laying its foundation on such principles & organising its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their safety & happiness. "

---
Thomas Jefferson (April 13, 1743 – July 4, 1826)

2008-02-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

Sigh...
small rant first. I'm fucking tired. Even though I'm in a 8-5 position, all these CCK 5am trip are making me feel fucking damn tired.

Anyway, I followed a friend to buy new year clothes on CNY eve... then sat down in Starbucks to talk about some stuff.. a lot of stuff... about making it big, being successful... and really at that point I have finally realized how lost I was... and how wrong I was. Nicholas, the friend I followed, pointed out all the things I have never thought off... Things that point to success, or rather things I have lost sight off, things I've blinded myself from. At that point I felt like the very person that I am was brought down to lowest point possible. Why? How can I let myself stray from my true feelings and thoughts? Wanting to be successful is one thing, getting there is another... I think it's time I have to look back and reflect on everything that I am again... But there is one thing I am absolutely sure off... I do some how feel lighten... from all the thoughts inside me... I now have a clearer view of where I'm heading, whether I'm up to it or not is a choice residing in me. This time I have to choose among my options wisely. I've come too far to fail. Too much to lose.

2008-02-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

Real time rendering w/o GPU assistance

2008-01-21T22:00:00.001+08:00

lol some crappy stuff I made up with JY while we were hunting for his headphones.

Lorwyn booster pack : $5.00

Can of Coke : $1.50

Up-sized lunch at MacDonald's : $6.80

Dreaming of you opening a Garruk (Expensive and rare MTG card) : $25.00

Opening the pack and found that it contains nothing but a crap rare : Priceless.

LOL anyway life is really a pain of a routine now, but I meet a buncha nice peeps and a interesting office lol. CNY coming, and pay day is near it too. WOOT big fat pay check. Hands begin to itch for Magic again, shit load of things to buy... Still waiting for my games. Feeling fucking lazy. Need to motivate my ass to do some programming ASAP if not I am really fucking dumbing down.

Guess that's about it...

2007-11-18T02:58:00.001+08:00

Haha ok an update.

3AM just finish CoD4 MP man. Damn high... or make it combat high. If you guys wanta shooter this fall what the fuck are you waiting for man lol.

Now in Stagmont, I'm kinda new there. Nice peeps but I'm having trouble breaking the ice lol. But hey found a PS3 CoD4 owner too. WOOT just WoW. Also chionging heroes. Will be getting the graphic novel too, if I have spare cash. Speaking of cash, it's really hard to maintain a proper upkeep with my current spending habits... Dammit don;t you just hate window shopping lol.

Anyway I'll update further ASAP.

2007-10-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

Bloody hellish fuck !!! Why am I always attracting imbeciles?
Fucking ass hole Balakhrianan or however the fuck you spell his fucking Indian name. If there is ever a reason why I'm fucking racist towards Indians he is the one reason. Ass hole represent the unification of the holy hatred trinity in my despise guideline: Stupidity, arrogance, and phony. Fucking ass hole call himself a 1WO where we address him as Mr Bala. So WTF are you? NS Reg? Or fucking civilian. He better not ever let me find out because if I do I am going to fucking break his rice bowl for impersonation and abusing Rank rights as threat.

Fucker, self proclaim any AS (Auxiliary Stuff) as his under attachment stuff, and he is fucking stupid. Can't even do his own fucking power point by himself. While I know his Sec3 drop out grade do not allow his puny brain to understand even a freaking MS powerpoint I can't expect this ingenious fucker to understand OpenOffice. To make matter worst if he really don't know fine, I'll have to suck my thumb up. But fucker been through a fucking OO course and has the freaking notes/guidebook whatever the fuck you call it beside him. Ass hole fucking hell we waste our taxes on imbeciles like him. Oh fuck I think I just praised him :

im·be·cile /ˈɪmbəsɪl, -səl or, especially Brit., -ˌsil/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[im-buh-sil, -suhl or, especially Brit., -seel] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. Psychology. a person of the second order in a former classification of mental retardation, above the level of idiocy, having a mental age of seven or eight years and an intelligence quotient of 25 to 50.
2. a dunce; blockhead; dolt.

Shit he is worst than a fucking idiot !!! Fucker !!!

Anyway I have this problem, can be consider anger management potential. When I deal with idiots/morons/imbeciles alike I tend to be evasive... but if I cannot evade, then anger will pile up and when it pile up BOOM !!!

Why? Because of all the things in the world I cannot stand stupidity. It's ok if you are stupid I would look down on you. But if you're stupid and you do stupid things to me/in front of me/ ask me to do stupid things and I cannot evade you... you are fucking asking for a time bomb. There are people currently at my Camp who are under anger management or other psychiatric treatment. Now I maybe the next opne to join them because I detest idiots/morons/imbeciles who fucking announce their idiocy/"morony"/stupidity directly/indirectly. Be stupid but don't be fucking stupid and don't fucking treat other people like they're stupid.

SAF LIVE quote of the day :

You can be stupid but don't be fucking stupid and don't fucking treat other people like they're stupid.

2007-09-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

2007-09-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

Weapons to be in MGS4 fucking sweet

MK14 EBR :

Javelin Missile

2007-09-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

Games to get: Note it's not complete

PS3:

- 09/12 North America Heavenly Sword
- 10/12 North America Folklore
- 11/05 North America Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare
- 11/15 North America Army of Two
- 11/19 North America Haze
Unreal Tournament 3
- 11/20 North America Uncharted: Drake's Fortune
- 01/22 North America Dark Sector

optionals:

- 10/23 North America Clive Barker's Jericho
- 10/08 North America The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion - Game of the Year Edition
- 10/30 North America The Simpsons Game
TimeShift
- Blade Storm: Hyakunen Sensou
- Tom Clancy's Ghost Recon Advanced Warfighter 2
- Lair
- Brothers In Arms Hell's Highway (Subject to change because it's the Europe version)
- Kane & Lynch: Dead Men (Subject to change because it's the Europe version)
- Assassin's Creed (Subject to change because it's the Europe version)

Xbox 360:

- 09/25 North America Halo 3
- 10/23 North America Ace Combat 6: Fires of Liberation (w/Flightstick) (subject to change for PS3 version)
- BioShock

Note these titles are just what I want to get within this year and during the catch up periods around December to next year March.

The list does not include MGS4, DMC4, FFXIII, FFvXIII etc etc and PSP games plus the necessary programming textbooks.

Painful hobby isn't it? But it's worth it.

2007-09-09T17:39:00.000+08:00

Feeling damn bored... Games seem stale for now, maybe it because I'm stilling waiting for the real big guys to hit. WarHawk s fun, too bad I'm not in a clan of some sort to milk the most fun outta this title. Though I did have a couple of good online experiences. But I still can't slap that bland taste off my mouth. It's like everything I do end up being mundane and lifeless. No hype at all. I wonder why... Suddenly I have this funny thought, that I am nothing more than just a 20 year old stuck in a "dead" society. I guess that's what being in the SAF can do to you... well who have a choice anyway. Bronco Company dudes are going to POP soon, wonder if they still remember me.

After all these lags I finally pick up an old "hobby" of mine again. Picking up reference books and read them. I'm amazed to find out how much information I have forgotten over my down time. Had a bit of latency issues when I was reading some of the topics, mostly Mathematics. Definitely must revise my Math. Coming this week half the people I know in my life are heading in soon (To BMT), another half are heading out and be posted to their unit.

Dickson have been posted out of training and he's in the same camp as me. Too bad not the same wing office though. Last week he told me he had a chance to go for some audition with the SAF Music and Drama unit. I feel happy for him, because he get to do things which he is passionate about. He was telling me that his Wing Sergeant Major give him a hand and refer him to that unit. Damn he's one lucky bastard, just day one and his WSM is standing on his side... Well now I'm actually wondering if I should do the same too, but I'm not heading to Music & Drama. I'm trying to go for Future Warfare, maybe as a simulation engineer. Since I'm here in this stupid spot any way I thought why the fuck not and give it a shot right... but the problem is who in the world have luck like Dickson... Damn. Whatever, guess I just made another incoherent post again. Which fucking make me wonder does anybody even read these shit I write?

Just in case anyone of you wonder, all these incoherence actually reflect the chaotic rationale of my now... argh.

I guess it's because of the sudden loneliness that hit me.

2007-09-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

2007-09-05T21:33:00.000+08:00

Walking Disaster Lyrics

2007-09-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

2007-08-19T02:47:00.000+08:00

2007-08-15T19:29:00.000+08:00

NICE !!!

http://www.gameaxis.com/home/?blog=1660

2007-08-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

This song is featured in FolksSoul, which I should be playing if my Mum didn't screw the order up...

Now I gotta wait around or make an internet order purchase, which means another long fucking week to enjoy it... fuck, if you really want things done your way you must fucking do it yourself... Don't you just hate it when you have to suffer the consequence of another person's mistake/actions ?

2007-08-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

2007-08-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of it... I'm sick of this SAF life. I'm sick of waking up at 5 AM, and the goddamn lost of my precious time. FUCK, what fucking service? It's never fucking being appreciated by anyone. It's a fucking waste of tax, fucking waste of youth and freedom. Fucking rules, stupid nonsensical "DISCIPLINE". FUCK YOU DAMN IT, FUCK YOU YOU BUNCH OF MOTHERFUCKING ASS HOLES, FUCK YOU SAF. FUCK EVERYONE OF YOU WHO FUCKING TRAP ME IN THIS DOUBLE HELIX OF HATE AND MISERY. STUPID FUCK !!!!!!!!!!! DIE MOTHERFUCKER JUST MOTHERFUCKING DIE YOU BUNCHA BLOODY FUCK !!!! JUST FUCKING DIE !!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

2007-08-05T01:15:00.001+08:00

Karami tsuku kazeni sakarai
ushinatta kisetsu wo sagashite iru
Wazuka demo mesasu houkou he
Azayakana kioku ga tsuki ugokasu

How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?

Itsumo karada juu wo kimi ga kake meguri afuresou
Dakara kowaku nai yo asu mo
Because I always feel you in me.

Kawaki kitta nodo he nagashita kimi no mei de
Kokoro wo uruoshiteku
How many cuts should I repeat?
How many fates should I accept?
Does it have an end?

Haruka ano tori no you
Sora wo tobi koete yuketara
Itsumo tsutaete iyou ai wo
Because I always feel you in me.

You taught me how to love. I feel.
I can do anything.
Yume ni egaku sekai wo kimi no me no mae ni hirogetai
Dakara kowaku nai yo asu mo
My beloved season calls me.
Because I always feel you in me.

2007-08-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

2007-07-28T23:05:00.001+08:00

I could only wish I was there...

2007-07-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

SICK !!!!!

2007-07-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

lol I love this ad. Damn catchy

2007-07-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

"Signal Fire"

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cuz there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.

[Chorus:]
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cuz I need you to guide me to safety.

No, I don't want to wait forever [x2]

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

[Chorus (x2)]

No, I don't want to wait forever [x3]

2007-07-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Fuck lah !!!!! Countless doctor and specialist letter plus one MP letter and SAF still post me to some fucked up unit where environment is a obstacle to my skin... Fuck face... you really stand for Screwed And FUBAR. And for those of you who have got no idea what FUBAR means it stands for Fucked Up Beyond All/Any Recognition.

2007-07-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

It's the philosophy, actions and determination that counts to save this planet we live in. We can't save it by wearing Green. This point have really prove to me how much junk the media has spread through it's stupidity. "Wear green to show us your support", yeah sure having a Live concert to spread is good and cool, after all we're the MTV generation... But doing, or asking people to do, stupid things to show their awareness is FUCKING STUPID and senseless. Fuck ! How is wearing green going save our Planet Earth? What by having everyone wear green we will cast an reduction effect on the CO/CO2 production? Fuck you !!!! Show through your actions like stop fucking smoke unnecessary , ask China/USA to pull up their under underwear and suck their balls to reduce pollutions, cut less trees, grab Indonesians by their balls and tell them to stop burning forest !!! Reduce CFC, stop using Styrofoam. Stopping dumping trash into sea and rivers, Spend more money on R&D to get clean fuels and stop digging for oil GREEDY FUCKS, spreading the message more fucking explicitly and correctly. Global Warming has been a fucking problem for the pass century not JUST RECENTLY FUCK FACE !!!! I went to Town today and saw many IDIOTS, POP CULTURE FOOLISH BRAIN FUCKED MOTHERFUCKERS wearing Green. (Oh !!! it's hip and cool. I'm saving Earth... FUCK YOU POSER !!!) So? How much DO YOU KNOW ABOUT SAVING the Earth? Fuck they probably know half about shit for all I know. Senseless brain-fucks. Fucking make no sense... Idiots!

2007-06-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

My last hours of freedom... living and dedicated entirely to reminiscence. There are so much I have to do yet left undone. So many things I want to say to so many people but I didn't find the courage to say it... especially to a special someone. But as usual I chicken out. I begin thinking a lot about my future... What will I become after all of these? Will DSTA come for me? Did I choose the right move? After all of these what's next? Well Digipen is the most obvious thing but what's after that? How am I going to improve myself... my programming skills. I admit I have slacked for too damn long, sitting my butt around. Well what can I say, even with all the gripes that I have deep within me, about freedom about rights, about being an individual. I'm still bound powerless. Strange enough I did not touch either of my babies [my Xbox 360 and my PlayStation 3] Instead what I did was I've popped a DVD into my DVD player... then I started thinking about life as a soldier. To tell you the truth, I think in reality there is nothing worth fighting for... we are just tools for politicians. They wield us when they need us and throw us aside when we're a burden. True for all wars, true for all country. Soldiers are never appreciated. When the ugliest of what war and humanity have to offer stir up from the abyss of our inner sins, soldiers gets the finger first. And to think I will be part of that line for 2 fucking years, standing in the firing squad, I'm beginning to realize how powerless I am right now. Where's all my rebellious angst against the corrupted? I finally realize that no matter how I out smart people I am still powerless to surpass them. There is nothing which I feel is worthy for me to fight for other than my own dreams and my love ones... but truth to be told there will never be a war in this land. Even if there is it will not be a smart move... after all we're just a worthless port whose very resources are render totally useless once you attempt to occupy us. Maybe really only then I will stand up to fight... for the ones I love and the ones that stand beside me. Still this chain of incoherent thoughts doesn't seem to make any sense... What the fuck am I talking about right now?

2007-06-12T00:11:00.001+08:00

F 22 RAPTOR videos !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.dosomethingamazing.com/?s=71&v=594

2007-05-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

This game is gonna rock !!!!

2007-05-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

Bleed It Out Lyrics

2007-05-14T21:27:00.000+08:00

The most meaningful song in Minutes to Midnight. Both Mike Shinoda and Joseph "DJ Hahns" Hahns really gain my respect. Mike with this lyric, and Hans who dedicate his theme in the MTV for "What I've Done" to Global Warning. IMO, the industry needs more truthful people and bands like Linkin Park and less posers to boost intellectual freedom. Here's something inspirational:

Hands Held High

turn my mic up louder i got something to say
lightweights step it aside when we come in
feel it in your chest/ the syllables get pumping
people on the street say they panic and start running
words on the loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme I'm dumping
healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
fuck that/ i wanna see some fist pumping
risk something/ take back what's yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
'cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for
like the war's really just a different brand of war
like it doesn't cater to the rich and abandon poor
like they understand you in the back of the jet/ when you
can't put gas in your tank/ and these fuckers are
laughing their way to the bank/ cashing the check
asking you to have compassion/ have respect
for a leader so nervous in a obvious way
stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in their living room laughing like
what did he say

in my living watching/ I am not laughing/ 'cause
when it gets tense I know what might happen
the world is cold/ the bold men make action
have to react or get blown into fractions
ten years old/it's something to see/ another
kid my age drug under a jeep
taken and bound/ and found later under a tree
i wonder if he had thought the next one could be me
do you see/ the soldiers/ they're out today they
brush the dust from the bulletproof vests away
it's ironic/ at time like this you pray
but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
there's bomb on the buses/ bikes/ roads
inside your market/ your shops / your clothes/ my dad
he's got a lot of fear I know
but enough pride inside not to let it show
my brother had a book he hold with pride
a little red cover with a broken spine
on the back/ he hand wrote a quote inside:
"when the rich wage war it's the poor who die"
and meanwhile/the leader just talks away
stuttering and mumbling for the nightly news to replay
the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like
what did he say

with hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you

2007-05-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

Linkin Park Lyrics

Linkin Park Lyrics

2007-05-08T09:56:00.001+08:00

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

2007-05-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

OK... bad news... I think ST Electronics have rejected me... Hope for a IT filled NS burst liao. Shit man, fucking enlistment date ruin my 1.8k paycheck. No reply for 2 weeks...

Ksatria still owing me money. wallet is thinning and I need cash man. Well now my mum finally understand my stand on NS... I've decided to pull my last card. It's an "All in" screw this one up I'm all 6 feet under.

Precious life wasted like this...

Watching Evangelion all over again. That old VCD is in Chinese sub so I'm having problem understanding the content, guess I must get my DVD back. lol after so long I still find Asuka cute. Got a gashaphon of her holding her sun lotion in her bikini. Amazing, for something so small the details are just way too damn accurate. I'll post a few pics later if I feel like it.

2007-04-26T02:42:00.001+08:00

OK blogger is beginning to suck... I can't post long posts... anyway this is the first paragraph after the end read the next post:

Hmm went back to NYP today for a talk by Yuji Yasuhara a member of the Gran Tourismo team. I learn quite a bit today, and asked quite a bit of questions... well I end up filtering majority of the key ones around lol. Well the first question was a real technical one. It's one that will put any programmer in the industry ti the finest test... especislly game programmers. How do I push the hardware with the bottlenecks... lol but it ended up sounded like a what are the bottlenecks. Mr Yasuhara must be trying to avoid that question lol.. I mean he worked so hard maybe me asking that question was a bit too much. But you don't everyday like it's a Sunday, this is the best time to know about CELL B/E and the PS3... of course I know the bottlenecks with the PS3 and the potential solutions to them before going in, but I have to be sure. As a programmer you need to look at the hardware like its a puzzle and then find an answer to the puzzle a solution and they must be the best possible solutions derived. Not perfect but best, people who will misread the meaning my say shit about this line. You see a Best solution is one where you and your team have chosen the best philosophical approach, while perfect is one everyone follows. To tell you the truth I hate every perfect solution follower...

Those that works in EA right now using middleware for everything. That just suck, where's the uniqueness of the project. What is it that represent you? As a programming team.. as a game developer. The game? Well a game is just like an F1 racing car. The engineer builds it, but there is no spirit in it, because the builder did not infuse any into it. That is why I respect the Japanese developers more over the American... They simply tries to look for more new and innovative ways to their problems and games. Even if it's a sequel the newer ones feel more differently from the previous. For the Americans Engines maybe the one that represent them more... hardly are there anything worth mentioning in the design department. Unreal is a respectable one, they build THEIR own engine, even though I don;t really like it, maybe it's because everyone uses it, but their actions is respectable. Even if Gears of War do not have any innovation to their gameplay, at least they have a representation to themselves.

2007-04-26T02:42:00.000+08:00

Seriously Gears of War maybe using the old formula of hide in cover and shoot but like the creator said if it ain't broken don't fix it. At least they have the engine to represent themselves, what do other middleware users do? They have nothing ! Even if you make the next best game you won't be remembered. And serious there will hardly be any this generation. But to name a few Kojima Productions for pushing the PS3 with MGS4 as an early gen title, Guerrilla Games with Killzone 3 for trying to set a high guide, I believe them. Lair for their rendering techniques. Unreal, Square-Enix for their White Engine.

Gameplay is important, but good godly gameplay without appropriate technology to bring out the immersiveness of a product still render it useless. So I hope people that I know who still want to be a game developer to remember this, it's not that graphics are important, you are a programming team. Bring out the fullest is your job, if you don't do it for your game no one else will. Think about it. For whatever answers you find keep it to yourself... because that will be your philosophy. Whether it coincides with this or not it's really up to you. But a word of advice, look at those who give in their all... what are you compare to them. Do you want to be an elite or just a nobody hanging around.

2007-04-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

http://www.engrish.com/
interesting site lol

2007-04-19T02:59:00.000+08:00

What Samurai Champloo Character Are You?

Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.

2007-04-18T04:06:00.000+08:00

4am cannot sleep again... Jamming Snow (Hey Oh) into my brain.. sian...anyway got this from my friend's blog:

Your potential to achieve greater heights - buried
Your weekends with family and love ones - burnt
Your precious life and adulthood for the nation - wasted
Your unwavering sacrifice to the all important SAF - unappreciated...

Your PASSION
YOUR COMMITMENT
YOUR ARMY~

His NS is finishing soon I think... and he seems to be having a tough time. Looking at all the shit he went through I seriously have to tell you guys: I STILL DON'T GET THE BIG FUCKING IDEA ON THIS NS/DEFEND YOUR COUNTRY BULLSHIT. I have a big philosophy dedicated to my "BIG IDEA", if I can somehow spread these idea along... hell I might start some shit religion... I'll talk about it some time when I feel like it.

But then again... I don't fear NS... truth is I used to lol... but after looking at all the pictures my friend took, he does sort of give me the courage to face that piece of shit. Hell that is only when my "last breath" knocks on my door. But having no fear doesn't mean I have no rant against it. STILL A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME. WP seems damn happy if you ask me... If they really want me to do this military shit there's only one place I wanna go to and I will be open to it willingly. And that is Intelligence. Yup spies, espionage blah blah... but not as a direct field officer lol. Maybe some dude working in CIA/NSA like office.

OK, time to end this incoherent post...

2007-04-09T22:19:00.001+08:00

OK I'm not a big fan of AMV but this shit is just too cool to be ignored :

P.S : MGS theme plus carefully planned footage makes everything SUPER BADASS !!!! PERIOD !!! FULL-STOP !!! EVERYTHING ENDS !!!

2007-04-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

Haha if you switch on your TV in SG and see some ads you will probably change channels or even switch it back off. But if you're in the States and you do that... I have got no fucking idea what's wrong with you... Watch:

2007-03-31T03:48:00.000+08:00

Cant' sleep now...

I just keep on thinking about Digipen, the admission and the school fees... SAT exam, where to take? School have been bullshiting with us about the importance of portfolio. Well guess what? Tech guys like us can fuck our portfolio aside. Portfolio only applies to Art students.

Sigh After all this while there's finally news from Digipen already. Downloaded an interview with Al Hastening(sp?) , he's a Chief Technical Officer with Insomniacs maker of Resistance and the R&C series. Chief Tech guy, you're probably wondering what they do right? Well basically they handle the tools and engines for a game dev company. They design, implement and maintain codes.

In that particular interview he stated that all these universities are not enough for you to get started in the industry. The job really starts when you get out there and expose yourself to the industry and what it has to offer. Academics is just a stepping stone...

It actually makes me wonder about a lot of things. Job, prospect, dreams.... I'm really lost... I wish there is never NS... because it a breakpoint to the flow... sigh... right now I can't think of anything else. Just have to wait around until the information comes to me... So lost. Sigh... can't sleep anymore... maybe it's damn time I start moving my ass again.

2007-03-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

Holy shit !!!!

Pepper Lunch for both Brunch(Breakfast plus Lunch) and dinner today cannot believe it man lol...

Well walk a bit at Orchard, went to Taka and Funan hoping for AC4 and maybe get to see Oblivion on PS3. But sigh none... saw Assassin's Creed trailer w00t... I almost forget about one of the most important game that hype me for this gen... Well even though Sony is losing exclusive and MS is buying things out with their deep pocket I just have to say either way this gen is going to be one hell of a gen man. I love gaming woot. MGS4 November here I come !!!! Lair also, Killzone 3 to be show at E3 as said by Phil Harrision, FFXIII next year but seriously I'm kinda losing faith liao. C&C3, GRAW2, VF5, AC4 X360, Enchanted Arms for the PS3, DMC4, Ninja Gaiden Sigma... wah I lost sight of other important titles liao there's just too many... I need a job man definitely lol plus a new PC I hope. I just soooooooooooooo materialistic right? lol well who cares... but for all I know I better get a high paying job next time man, if not hard to sustain my greedy desire in games lol. MTG and Gunpla is also another killer... Movies and DVD/Blu-ray. Seriously I have this feeling HD DVD is not worth it liao... losing 3-to-1 ratio now almost everywhere, hope they settle the damn format war quick... or at least keep the war up but with HD DVD on the losing edge, so I can buy Blu Ray cheap, well if the competition keep them cheap anyway.

Fuck man Live screw my resume up, lucky Li Jiao help me ask for another person to refer to. Hope this get through, I need that Linden job if the raw part of the deal is successful. Then I can finally say FUCK YOU NS go to hell !!! I just Scofield the fuck out of you !!!

2007-03-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

I'm tired... really really tired. Tired of that bullshit filled semester and bullshit fill course... I thought DET was cool but it only brought me this much. I try to propagate further but I end up back to square one... looking back I have really got no idea what I have got myself into. Sometimes it does make me wanna cry, cry about all the stupid decisions I have made. I cry not because I'm sissy or emo... but because I could have gone much further. The perception of perfect... I always think it's a subjective term... But I realize it's neither objective nor subjective.

I'm tired... every time I try to pick programming textbooks I keep telling myself I'm gonna get through it, be the best... but the gap of leveling it's just too far. Looking back at how we learn stuff in DET days... it's really the most ineffective way anyone can ever think of... looking at source codes and not the true objective facts and theoretical aspect of things... if it works it's ok. THAT'S BULLSHIT. In this world to really survive u need to be more than just that... I want to be the best... but all this mediocrity is getting in my way... It's getting harder and harder. The path I choose is getting more and more skeptical in my mind... I'm sick of losing out, sick of being reactive... not that it's bad but being proactive at some point is better. Maybe all I need is time... But I don't have much left... there is never enough. I gotta pull myself out of this pile of shit seriously... but for now I'm too tired, just too damn tired.

FUCK...why am I always like this... Do I really have to break myself and rebuild me from scratch again? To tell you the truth it's really damn hard, not because of the fear to fall... but the fear to break.

2007-03-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

Been a long while since I post... Nothing much actually.... Sometimes I wonder if people ever stops by lol.

Trying to get a job at Linden Labs, hope it get through. And after I get through I hope the second part of the deal goes through too, pull me out of the NS list. Banking on a lot of things here...

Need to try and contact my surgeon/doctor in charge when I was hospitalize so I can some how get a downgrade...

Oh yeah I got a PS3 !!!! Woo hoo !!! AC4 rocks... even though Sony is losing exclusive but I still believe it's the potential machine. There is just so much more and it's still early in the race...

That's about it... Other than that I'm trying to save money and do some programming revision and learn new techniques. Reading up on Math and Physics lately.

Oh yeah I'm back to Bump of Chicken too：カルマ rocks !!!

2007-02-28T17:38:00.000+08:00

Ok so I have a small rant. People who know me will probably figure out why I'm so fucking excited about next Wednesday. It's PS3 WEEK, I'm finally getting my dream machine. But today I just receive 2 very FUBAR news, one still on the ok side the other, I just dun get the purpose of it.

I receive news from my ex class mate that we will have a chalet on the 6 and 7 March. The fee to pay is 25 bucks. It's ok considering that it's a chalet and a gathering. THERE IS STILL A PURPOSE !!!! Although I cannot make it on the second day to uphold my Emergence Day deal.

Then the bomb came. FUSION is 40 bucks !!! Look, it's not that 40 bucks is a lot. But paying 40 bucks on an event that doesn't benefit me and an event where I SHOW STUFF THAT I'M NOT PROUD OF is LITERALLY FUCKING STUPID !!!

My mum complains that I spend so much, well you know what? To get ready for Emergence Day I save my ass up like crazy reduce outing as much as possible and avoid spending money on stuff I feel I don't need at all. Now all of a sudden I have to vomit 65 bucks on my tight finance to do stuff that I'm either half-assed about or already lose interest in. Don't get me wrong, I still love developing games, but if I want to show something it should be something that I AM PROUD OF, not some crappy ass project that I have to puke out for the sake of puking.

That it's I'm seriously pissed. I rather have my PS3 satisfy my own childish selfish desire than on crappy shit that I have no beneficial edge to gain. FUCK FUSION, FUCK NYP FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE THAT SCREW MY LIFE UP !!!!!!!!!

I have 3 words and I wanna make them loud and clear : "I WANT OUT"

2007-02-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

FUCKING HARDCORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-22T23:54:00.000+08:00

n mood to work, no hype for fusion to tired to pace up...
2 weeks to my PS3...
working on X9Engine, not for fusion, but for my ego lol
Feel sian for NS.
Missing someone bad...

Why my life so sad?

2007-02-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

LOL I forgot to share this one...

2007-02-13T20:18:00.000+08:00

New deck: God-Dam Control

creatures:
4x Angel of Despair
4x Court Hussar
4x Whitemane Lion
2x Teferi

others:
3xWoG
3xDamnation
3xRewind
4xRemand
4xMana Tithe
2xThink Twice

artifact:
2x B/W signet
1x U/w signet
1x B/U signet

lands
2xFlakStone
3xHallow Fountain
2XGodless Shrine
1x Watery Grave
2x B/W bounce land
1x B/U bounc land
1XU/W bounce land
1xUrborg, Tomb of Yawgmoth

basic lands
3xswamp
3xplain
4xisland

2007-02-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

Sigh so long never touch, now that Planar Chaos is out have an urge to touch it. Here's an incomplete deck list:

Deck Name : God Dam Control

4x Angel of Despair
2xFlakStone
3xWoG
3xDamnation
2xTeferi
3xHallow Fountain
3XGodless Shrine
2xTerramorphic Expanse
4xDash Hope
4xRemand
4xMana Tithe
1xU/W store land
1xB/U storeland
1xUrborg, Tomb of Yawgmoth
1xCelestial Dawn
1XDust Elemental
4xWhitemane Lion
2xThink Twice

Current count:
9 creature
13 non basic land 9 empty slot for land
19 other spell
45 spells total

Considering:

1xheros remembered???? lol joke addition
2xMagus of Bazzar???
2xDreamscape Artist???
2xRiftmarked Knight???
Porphyry Nodes???
signets.
lotus bloom
serra avenger???
Mesa Enchantress???
Some black removal enchantment???
More blue counters??? Cut down the Dash Hope...

2007-02-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

HOLY SHIT !!!!

2007-01-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

Alright chump's up, let's do this. Leerooooooooooooyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy JenKins !!!!!

2007-01-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

2007-01-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Mind + LOTR + Hokkien ==

2007-01-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

Memorable Quotes from
Team America: World Police

Guy in Bar: See, there's three kinds of people: dicks, pussies, and assholes. Pussies think everyone can get along, and dicks just want to fuck all the time without thinking it through. But then you got your assholes, Chuck. And all the assholes want us to shit all over everything! So, pussies may get mad at dicks once in a while, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes, Chuck. And if they didn't fuck the assholes, you know what you'd get? You'd get your dick and your pussy all covered in shit!

=_=_=

Gary Johnston: We're dicks! We're reckless, arrogant, stupid dicks. And the Film Actors Guild are pussies. And Kim Jong Il is an asshole. Pussies don't like dicks, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes: assholes that just want to shit on everything. Pussies may think they can deal with assholes their way. But the only thing that can fuck an asshole is a dick, with some balls. The problem with dicks is: they fuck too much or fuck when it isn't appropriate - and it takes a pussy to show them that. But sometimes, pussies can be so full of shit that they become assholes themselves... because pussies are an inch and half away from ass holes. I don't know much about this crazy, crazy world, but I do know this: If you don't let us fuck this asshole, we're going to have our dicks and pussies all covered in shit!

2007-01-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

For Armored Core Fan or interested people

http://www46.tok2.com/home2/tateda/movie.html

Just love this game man...

2007-01-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

Man this shit makes Christopher Walken the coolest dude ever :

2006-12-31T01:56:00.000+08:00

Glamorous Sky by Nakashima Mika

2006-12-29T02:47:00.000+08:00

Cheque Note Teaser: The Rules to using Cheque Note
[Best read with Dani California playing]

- The human whose name is written in this note shall die. ->

The organization which name is written in this note shall declare a statement of bankrupcy. Also, the human whose name and account number is written in this note shall declare bankrupt.

- This note will not take effect unless the writer has the subject's face in their mind when writing his/her name. Therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected.->

this note will note take effect unless the writer has the subject's awareness in their live when writing his/her/it's name. Therefore, people/organization sharing the same name will/will not be affected [P.S: We don't guarantee their safety]

- If the cause of death is written within 40 seconds of writing the subject's name, it will happen. ->

If the cause of bankrupcy is written within 40 second of writing the subject's name, it will happen.

- If the cause of death is not specified, the subject will simply die of a heart attack. ->

If the cause of bankrupcy is not specified, the subject will simply declare bankrupt due to a federal law of edviction sent to their doorstep

- After writing the cause of death, the details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.->

After writing the cause of bankrupcy, the details of the bankrupcy[the killing blow btw] should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds [please make sure you time it right, we do emphasize on the timing issue]

Stay tuned for more man lol.

2006-12-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

Man this shit just voice out all my feelings towards Ksatria [exclude Mr Cedric, he's cool]. Just in case you can't see shit, click here

2006-11-27T22:44:00.001+08:00

Thomas Moore, 1779-1852

The minstrel boy to the war is gone,
In the ranks of death you'll find him;
His father's sword he hath girded on,
And his wild harp slung behind him;
"Land of Song!" cried the warrior bard,
"Tho' all the world betrays thee,
One sword, at least, thy right shall guard,
One faithful harp shall praise thee!"

The Minstrel fell! But the foeman's steel
Could not bring that proud soul under;
The harp he lov'd ne'er spoke again,
For he tore its chords asunder;
And said "No chains shall sully thee,
Thou soul of love and brav'ry!
Thy songs were made for the pure and free
They shall never sound in slavery!

US Civil War verse

The minstrel boy will return, we pray,
When we hear the news we all will cheer it.
The minstrel boy will return one day,
Torn perhaps in body, not in spirit.
Then may he play on his harp in peace,
In a world such as Heaven has intended,
For all the bitterness of man must cease,
And every battle must be ended

2006-11-27T00:28:00.001+08:00

Some Quotes from Hitchhicker's Guide to Galaxy:

The Book: It is important to note that suddenly, and against all probabiliy, a Sperm Whale had been called into existance, several miles above the surface of an alien planet. Since this isn't a naturally tenable position for a whale, this innocent creatre had very little time to come to terms with its identitity. This is what it thought, as it fell;
The Whale: Ahhh! Woooh! What's happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my... well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a... tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, whats this roaring sound, wooshing past what I'm suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It'll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I'm dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There's an awful lot of that now isn't it? And whats this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! Thats it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground!
[Dies]
The Book: Curiously the only thing that went through the mind of the bowl of petunias, as it fell, was, 'Oh no, not again.'

=_=_=

The Book: The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy also talks about love. It says, "Avoid if at all possible."

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The Book: It is of course well known that careless talk costs lives, but the full scale of the problem is not always appreciated. For instance, at the very moment that Arthur Dent said "I wouldn't want to go anywhere without my wonderful towel," a freak wormhole opened up in the fabric of the space-time continuum and carried his words far far back in time across almost infinite reaches of space to a distant Galaxy where strange and warlike beings were poised on the brink of frightful interstellar battle. The two opposing leaders, resplendent in their black jewelled battle shorts, were meeting for the last time, when, a dreadful silence fell, and, at that very moment, the words, "I wouldn't want to go anywhere without my wonderful towel" drifted across the conference table. Unfortunately, in their native tongue, this was the most appalling insult imaginable, so the two opposing battle fleets decided to settle their few remaining differences in order to launch a joint attack on our galaxy, now positively identified as the source of the offending remark. For thousands of years the mighty starships tore across the empty wastes of space and finally dived screaming on to the planet Earth - where, due to a terrible miscalculation of scale, the entire battle fleet was accidentally swallowed by a small dog. Those who study the complex interplay of cause and effect in the history of the Universe say that this sort of thing is going on all the time.

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The Book: "The Babel fish," said The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy quietly, "is small, yellow and leech-like, and probably the oddest thing in the Universe. It feeds on brainwave energy not from its carrier but from those around it. It absorbs all unconscious mental frequencies from this brainwave energy to nourish itself with. It then excretes into the mind of its carrier a telepathic matrix formed by combining the conscious thought frequencies with nerve signals picked up from the speech centres of the brain which has supplied them. The practical upshot of all this is that if you stick a Babel fish in your ear you can instantly understand anything said to you in any form of language. The speech patterns you actually hear decode the brainwave matrix which has been fed into your mind by your Babel fish. "Now it is such a bizarrely improbable coincidence that anything so mindboggingly useful could have evolved purely by chance that some thinkers have chosen to see it as the final and clinching proof of the non-existence of God. "The argument goes something like this: 'I refuse to prove that I exist,' says God, 'for proof denies faith, and without faith I am nothing.' "'But,' says Man, 'The Babel fish is a dead giveaway, isn't it? It could not have evolved by chance. It proves you exist, and so therefore, by your own arguments, you don't. QED.' "'Oh dear,' says God, 'I hadn't thought of that,' and promptly vanished in a puff of logic. "'Oh, that was easy,' says Man, and for an encore goes on to prove that black is white and gets himself killed on the next zebra crossing. "Most leading theologians claim that this argument is a load of dingo's kidneys, but that didn't stop Oolon Colluphid making a small fortune when he used it as the central theme of his best- selling book Well That About Wraps It Up For God. "Meanwhile, the poor Babel fish, by effectively removing all barriers to communication between different races and cultures, has caused more and bloodier wars than anything else in the history of creation."

2006-11-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

! HELP ME !
! EM PLEH !
! Tatsukete !

2006-11-22T16:00:00.001+08:00

Shit happens

2006-11-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

I hope this shit isn't illegal

2006-10-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

All around me are familiar faces,
Worn out places,
Worn out faces,
Bright and early for the daily races,
Going nowhere,
Going nowhere,
Their tears are filling up their glasses,
No expression,
No expression,
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow,
No tomorrow,
No tomorrow,
And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad,
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had,
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take,
When people run in circles it's a very very,
Mad world,
Mad world,
Children waiting for the day they feel good,
Happy birthday,
Happy birthday,
Made to feel the way that every child should,
Sit and listen,
Sit and listen,
Went to school and I was very nervous,
No one knew me,
No one knew me,
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson,
Look right through me,
Look right through me,
And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad,
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had,
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take,
When people run in circles it's a very very,
Mad world,
Mad world,
Enlarging your world,
Mad world...

2006-10-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

Damn I have so many problems to solve that I am literally a goddamn computer solving every little single fucking equations there is i nthis whole world. Fuck.

2006-10-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

2006-10-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

2006-10-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

2006-10-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo getting paid !!!

2006-10-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo !!!! I am finally get my long overdued pay. Sexy, Yusoff's face never seem anymore friendlier. Oh man, my darling wife the PS3 behold !!!!! Isn't she sexy? And it's black, these shots are early shots to show her sexy figure and design. Sweet !!!

2006-10-10T01:11:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time in Singapore, there lived a happy couple, Mr & Mrs Ng with their 3 lovely daughters; Elaine, Ena & Ella. The 3 daughters were brought up in a prim-and-proper way and when they reached 20, they were still virgins.

Years passed, and it was time to get them married. So, the parents found them the most suitable handsome guys. They got married and were preparing to set-off on their honeymoon.

As 'concerned' parents, Mr & Mrs Ng were curious about their daughters' first-night experience. So, before the daughters went on their respective honeymoons, Mrs Ng told them,"Your father and I want to know about your 1st night encounters and whether you are satisfied. Write a letter to us, but as not to raise your husbands' curiosity, you all must use a code-name to describe your experiences".

So, the excited daughters were off. A week passed. Mr & Mrs Ng got the first letter. It was from Elaine. They opened the letter and found the word STANDARD CHARTERED. They immediately took the newspaper and looked for the Standard Chartered advertisement. "Ah! here it is!", exclaimed Mr Ng. The motto for Standard Chartered was...."BIG, STRONG & FRIENDLY". Mr & Mrs Ng were happy.

A week later, they got another letter. This time it was from Ena. The content was simple. "NESCAFE". So, again they took the neswpaper and looked for the Nescafe ad. "Ah! here it is. 'NESCAFE: PLEASURE TILL THE LAST DROP". Mr & Mrs Ng jumped in joy.

Another week passed. A month passed. And another. There was still no letter from Ella. The Ngs became worried. Finally, the letter came. It was scribbled and could hardly be read but Mrs Ng managed to figure it out. The code-name was "SINGAPORE AIRLINES". Why Singapore Airlines?

Mr Ng rushed to the nearest store and got a newspaper. He flipped the pages frantically. "Ah! Here it is!" Mrs Ng grabbed the page and read aloud. Before she could finish ...THUMP!!!...she fell off her chair.

The motto was ... "7 TIMES A WEEK. 4 TO 6 TIMES A DAY. NON-STOP".

2006-10-01T14:05:00.000+08:00

A man and a friend are playing golf one day at their local golf course. One of the guys is about to chip onto the green when he sees a long funeral procession on the road next to the course. He stops in mid-swing, takes off his golf cap, closes his eys, and bows down in prayer. His friend says, "Wow, that is the most thoughtful and touching thing I have ever seen. You truly are a kind man." The man then replies, "Yeah, well we were married 35 years."

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Harold's new job had him working really late. He decides to get his wife a watchdog. He goes to the pet store and asks for a doberman.

The employee said, "If its a guard dog you want I have a dog just for you." The man walks to the back of the store to get a dog and comes back with a little poodle.

Harold says, "This small thing, a watch dog? You're kidding, right?"

The employee says, "No, this dog is special; he knows karate."

"Karate? I don't believe it," Harold says.

The employee puts the dog down and says, "Karate the sign." And he points to a sign advertising dog food. The dog runs up and rips the sign to shreds. Harold is amazed at this.

The employee then says, "Karate the chair." And he points to a chair in the corner. The dog runs up and rips the chair to shreds. By now Harold is convinced.

"I'll take him," he says.

When he gets home he surprises his wife and she yells out, "This little thing, a watch dog? No way." Harold says, "But this dog knows karate."

"Karate," she yells. "Karate my arse!"